News from Dr Bernard this morning!
Wadley is doing fine, taking his meds and looking good.. all his tests came back NEGATIVE!!!
The relief is huge!! Ironically today has been a very hard day for me in missing Jesley, I think the relief of Wadley being OK has accentuated the fact that Jesley is eternally well but gone from us for this time. I wonder how other people handle the loss of their child over time? I want to keep Jesley always in the conversation.. want people to know that he was and is part of our lives even though he isn't part of our adoption plans..and yet he is!
It's complicated, because you can't really say.. "we are bringing an 8 month and 2 1/2 month old home... these our sons.... we lost our son Jesley......" yet it is all so intricately bound up in our hearts and minds. Giving it up.. leaving it at the cross.. really getting to know what that really means in a much bigger way.
I'm so glad you are blogging this journey, friend! Praying for all of you...especially those precious boys and so hope they are home SOON!
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